andrew and esther *
Wednesday, August 30, 2006 <3 Summer Nights...
ahhh finally Act 1 of my prelims are over... n thank God e major components n all r all within these 3 days so i can pace myself fer e rest of the papers ahead, which will take place after the hols... so ANYWAY i didn't come to blog bout the highlights of my prelims, so dun worrie =x
hmmm i'm cruising thru half of my prelims, esther's promotional exams are creeping closer by the second as well... seeing her panic and all bout not being able to catch up n all suddenly made me see my own reflection exactly a year ago... i rmb how i was panicking with eef, who happened to be my studying partner then, calmly ploughing thru his lecture notes and textbooks and readings...
how time flies eh?? within a year so much has changed, especially with this wonderful young lady by the name of esther coming into my life =) ahhh i juz love her!!! ok back to e topic... her exams are coming too!! haha so she's like so capitalizing time now tt her top agenda is study whenever she has free time coming her way!!! well i'm quite glad to see her working hard fer her studies even wif e heavy commitment in band n all (yea i've been thru it too, band's realli hectic but real fun too haha)... well i hav faith in u esther!!! juz hope u can hav more faith in yourself as well!!
oh yes about e alumni concert she's gonna hav... WAS initially quite down n all bout it like cos she's gonna be so bz n having no time fer mi... the keyword is "WAS" haha... but BUT but BUT but i managed to snap outta my selfish self haha... wuz juz thinking la... like acually wat i realli realli wan is fer her to be happy =) so well i mean, i'm sure her parents wouldn't realli wan her to participate in alumni cos of her studies n she's J2 next year n all... putting myself in her shoes... i know deep down i would wish tt someone close to mi could give mi tt support n say, "go ahead, do it, i'm all behind u" n gimme tt assuring smile... so well i'm sure tt's wat she realli realli wans as well =) so i wanna be e one giving her tt kinda support in wadeva she's undertaking =)))
yea so i kinda sorted out my thinking n all... ahhh feel so happy after tt... cos a smile across her face could bring wonders to my life haha...
but of course i made her promise to get 40 pts fer her promos b4 she could perform cos i wan her to secure a safe promotion n not sth borderline like 34.5 or sth... tt would be rather dangerous wat... so well tt's all i ask, tt she do well b4 she can undertake another commitment... i mean, as much as my passion fer music is towards the pt of madness (pple who noe mi should noe tt), we're all "student-musicians"... e word "student" comes 1st... YES it is indeed a sad fact but ya tt's e society we're living in wat... partly cos i made her do tt is oso cos e concert is so so so near her block test 1 next year! so she realli hafta make e exra effort to brush up her foundations... i mean, i waited till block test 1 to do so n it's realli a mad rush n i dun suppose she would hav e time in J2 if she's performing... so might as well do it now rite...
so so so i think i'm being quite cruel n unfeeling this way but ya... as much as i wan her to soar in her passion n participate in things tt she loves, i wan her to do well in life... ahhh wat an irony rite? again it's e society we're living in... it's hard to thrive fer pple in e arts like us... well but still i hav faith in u darling!!! i'm sure she can do it wif tt perseverance =)
i mean, in a way, tt's leaving to God as well cos only He will noe wat's e best fer her... so whether or not she make e 40 pts, God has His reasons =) haha even if u've gort no faith in urself muz hav faith in Him rite??
anw coming to e next thing... ahhh realli realli wanna thank esther fer all e good times she's brought to my life fer e past 7 plus (close to 8) months... yea n e support she's given throughout this exam period fer mi =) it's juz like "summer nights" in e movie Grease... sth so so nostalgic n memorable... even 10, 20, 30 years down e road... wherever i may be, i'm sure i'll rmb all these =) n i'm sure i'll talk bout it haha (those who watched Grease will get my notion n e parallel situation i'm trying to compare)
well well it's almost time to go! gtg pick esther up from school!! ahh can't wait to see her again =x haha think i've been in e retro mood lately n listening to the Grease Soundtrack makes mi go mad n all haha... okok i REALLI gtg! LOVE YOU ESTHER!!!
<3 andrew
neveralone ;2:53 PM
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Saturday, August 26, 2006 <3
okays. i've got to admit i'm extremely sleeply now.
Yes 11plus plus is when lethargy takes over my body
And right now as A Sacred Suite is lulling me to sleep,
(i didnt even i noe i nodded off while this page took forever to load)
i just cant help but to write this entry,
no matter how sleepy i am and how my back aches from stitting on this chair.=x
hmmm, yes. i haven't blogged for awhile ehh..
just to sum up a few significant things that happened over the past few weeks which i CAN remember.
sorry, but i think i do suffer form short-term memory loss
especially in the state i am in now
HAHS.
first things first, dear has PASSED HIS NAPFA!!
yes, a SILVER! :))
i'm really really sosoo proud of him!
CONGRATS dear, you deserve it with all your hardwork and preserverance.
it has been hard on you.
he was really happy, cause it meant being able to spend more time with me before going into NS.
awwh please tell me how sweet is that.
i can still remember that day when he missed by a few seconds for his 2.4km to get a Silver, he was so demoralised.
And finally when he managed to re-do his 2.4km and passed! i was sososooo totally happy and relieved. i wouldnt have known what to do if he didnt. =x
And how he cried that evening..RAHs.
ohh. Jay Chou's Hei Se Mao Yi is on now...so nice..another lullaby
zzzz..
ANDandand..i sort of "rewarded" him with a nice meal at the Swimming Club!
yupps i had spicy food k! and we had cake and banana split. please tell me you're getting jealous! =p
he told me that it had been in a long time ever since he sat down to have a nice, slow meal
yup so on school's polling day, we went down
so nice to watch the swimming classes going on
and to walk around and just talk and watch and study too ;)
such a nice, relaxing, yet rather productive day
yes. on that night, i think i got rather irritated i guess?
i forgot to mention that those past few days, Andrew had been thinking alot about post-prelims
you know..there's an upcoming alumni concert for me
and he's been really worried that i wouldnt be able to cope
with all the events in SAJCband and alumni band
with SYF coming up
quoting from him, by time i'm done with all these, i'd be too tired to spend quality time with him before his NS
and how i'd be easily irrtable when i'm tired
but i guess i understand how he feels.
i mean the reason why he strived to pass his NAPFA was because of spending more time with each other!
ahhh i still feel so bad as if a knife is cutting through my heart when i think of it now
how i made dear so totally upset
how much i wanted to be at his side and comfort him
i should have been more understanding
And i really do hope dear, that from deep down inside you are alright alr..
These past few days aren't that eventful
yup, we're beginning to learn how to focus more on out studies as the exams draw near
yes, Prelims are NEXT WEEK!
and despite having to mug mug mug, dear's just been the sweetest thing ever.
how he's taken the time to meet me during my breaks
to sms me to "jiayou" when im studying or at lessons
cook lunch for me STILL
never failing to brighten my day with his smilee
to shower me with simple words of care and concern
a pat on the back
a word of encouragement
to pick me up after school, or after band prac.
he even came to school with me although he had no lessons for that day, cause he was afraid i'd be lonely!
everyday, he just touches and melts my heart with simple his little actions or words.
although small, they mean so much to me.
and they make me feel warm and happy from inside..and feel so ever lucky.
THANK YOU, THANK YOU and THANKYOU dear.
for i can never stop thanking you everyday for just being my sweet baby =D
HEY. look who is the one whose prelims are coming huh!
i know i can never measure up to all the sweet things Andrew has done for me
and i really wish i could do so much more..especially during this crucial last period
to be a big push, not a burden to him..
i think that should be the least i can do for him, after all he has done for me
Andrew, jiayou kayss!!
for your sake and mine :))
look forward to every right question you are going to achieve!
i bet it's gonna be good.
take good care of your health
and smile always!
remember i'm here to be your willing pillar of support, anytyme, anywhere.
[and your hug machine ;p]
LOVING YOU ALWAYS, ANDREW
Esther;
neveralone ;1:19 AM
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Sunday, August 20, 2006 <3 mug mug mug!!
ahhh e exams r nearing once again!!! prelims fer mi n promos fer esther... well now wat we do everydae is mug, mug n MUG!! haha we seem to be juz studying fer e past week's afternoons!! dunno bout esther, but it's like i'm living to mug!!! hahaha well like wat i told my mom, i won't get a chance anymore if i dun mug now! hmmm events juz seem to whizz past our very eyes as we come to 7 months of our life-long journey... it might seem rather reflective, but i realise i've been in an extremely reminiscing mood lately... looking back, our 1st valentines' day cum 1st month didn't seem too far away... from tt point of time, however, my stepping down from my band duties and e esplanade concert, band dinner seemed like such a long way away!! well i guess it wuz all e uncertainty we had in our hearts bout future tt made everything seem lightyears away... now however, events seem to be juz crashing straight into our faces faster than we can stop to take a breather... it has dawned upon me tt 'A' levels n graduation n army will reach my doorstep in no time n i dun wan them to!!! i wanna cherish every moment of my life as a student, wif few responsibilities, little worries, n a relatively carefree life... more imptly, i wanna spend more time wif my beloved b4 i enter tt 2 years of national service... but wif all these mugging taking up all my breathing space, how am i gonna do all tt?? well i guess tt's y i'm taking time to type all these... life wif esther's been realli great, all e good times, e things i've learnt, like patience, being considerate, seeing e imperfection within myself... these are e times n moments i'll realli realli cherish... e older entries n posts r realli nostalgic... e scenes juz flashed back into my mind as i'm reading them... on e other hand, i've kinda talked myself out (i'm not schizophrenic) of my cynical side... i'd rather cherish the times we're utilising now to revise fer exams than to brood n sulk over e coming of those sad events...
well here r some of e photos of our beautiful memories...
e very beginning...
tt evening at marina...
orientation at sentosa...
on our way to nus open house...
during sports heats...
band pracs on sat mornings...
b4 e concert...
our crazy breaks during study times...
picnic at botanical gardens...
sending her off to perth...
our 5th month at tcc...
when she first took off her braces...
those times at mos burger...
n e times after piano...
on our way to rehearsal fer my final concert...
e morning b4 e esplanade concert...
<3 andrew
neveralone ;1:50 PM
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Sunday, August 13, 2006 <3 all you need is love...
ahhh it's been a long long time since i last blogged... so much has happened since then... like preparation fer our esplanade concert, which wuz quite a blast i would say =) then all the attempts to start revision fer our prelims, promos n wat hav u... haha numerous ups and downs, laughters and tears... n i immersed myself in every moment of it... ahhh how time flies ehh?? we'll soon step into the 7th month of our relationship!!!!
so let's start wif the concert... esther's improvement wuz realli one BIG miracle!!! within 3 days her playing improved from sounding like an inconfident 3-year-old to a confident, clear and determined musician!! i'm so so so so proud of her!!! n furthermore, i wuz realli taken aback by her progress! like within one afternoon her sound improved tenfolds!! like i always said, esther's gort much more potential than mi when it comes to saxophone-playing... so the concert juz came and went... faster than i could say the word "concert".... well tt wuz our last concert tgt... and also marks the end of my school performing career... ahhh six years passed since the day i picked up my first saxophone... it's realli quite saddening =((( ok i digress haha... anw i'm juz extremely happy that esther can carry on where i left off in terms of playing...
ok tt's fer e concert... hmmm juz had band dinner last fridae nite at copthorne orchid.... ahhh esther looked so so gorgeous tt nite!!! (tho she'll choose to disagree wif mi)... well well we went over to my godma's place to visit tt dae after much persuasion from mi... haha my godma seems happy to see her =))) anw who wouldn't??? such a sweet girl =D
oh oh oh!! we went to watch fireworks at marina last nite!!! how nice... thanx to esther fer asking mi to go along... cos i realli realli enjoyed myself... n watching fireworks wif a loved one is extremely heartwarming... those magnificent views... juz makes one feel warm from the inside... well the traffic wuz so heavy we reached home onli at midnight... but wat matters most, in my opinion, is tt we both enjoyed each other's company...
seven months down this journey, nv once hav i felt lonely, cold or anything... it's cos esther has always been there, whether i'm in high spirits, or way down... she wuz by my side... ahhh i juz love you esther!!! 212nd day tmr!! looking forward to it =)))
<3 andrew
neveralone ;4:10 PM
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Tuesday, August 08, 2006 <3
hey guys!
a new shoutbox!!
well anw...sad news
Andrew and I had our LAST concert last night at the Esplanade
yupps. this marks the end of the 7plus months in band together
although it's such a short period of time, it really had a big impact on me
he was the one to accompany to band from the very start of J1
never did i have to go home alone once after band, even if he didnt need to report for band
[or any tht i cld rmbr of] =)
the one to accompany me during breaks
the one to encourage me to dare to play out
the one to be the first to point out my mistakes [even if he had to be harsh]
how much he has taught in music and saxophone playing
seriously, i wouldnt think yesterday would have been possible for me or the J1saxtion without him
i rmbr the sad times too
how you would get so upset with my performance
during sectionals especially
and you wouldnt tell me, afraid to make me upset too
im sorry for the times i disappointed you
but i'll make sure i wont disappoint you again..
i really improved
even with one week left, and i nearly lost all hope on Fantasy Variations, he turned the situation around
all that he has helped, taught and influenced me during this SAJCband journey these few months has really changed me and my mindset
thanks for all the help, encouragement, scoldings, care, training, stern-ess, encouragementencouragementENCOURAGEMENT...sososo much more i cant express
it's so sad that youre going and all
there'll be no one to depend on to point out my mistakes
to glady offer help ANYTYME
sit with me and go through the same part overover and over again
keep my feet warm during freezing band pracs
to help me carry my stand
be my walking partner to SASband rm and back
pull out stuck swabs
prevent me from using my nails to screw screws back on my sax
polishing my sax
my punching bag
willing listener of my lame nonsense AND my lame nonsense partner
not staring but dancing along with me
making sure im never alone
give me the most spastic smiles during demoralising band pracs
keep my reeds in his reed case
fellow 1st altosax player
to be the one that brings me so much comfort, takes away my fear [of Glosz]
and i can just continue adding so much more to this list...
will miss you so muchh dear! =((
i really can't thank you enough for all you've done
the memories and the joys you brought me
i will rmbr them, always
THANK YOU DEAR.
can't write special words to you during band pracs anymore
RAHS
dear..dont go!!
wahhhhhs!
well...left with banddinner
Will cherish being with you always and forever
till never...
dear jiayou for your studies
you have me and GOD too
*hugs*
from your darling,
Esther
neveralone ;12:45 AM
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